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“transatlanticism”

November 24, 2006

Good song from Death Cab for Cutie. Yes, Andy, I just discovered them, leave me alone. Eric first introduced them to me, but I thought they sounded dumb, so I never listened. Mostly, that’s because I don’t trust Eric’s taste in music because he likes Sister Hazel a little too much, and he likes Nickelback and Bryan Adams and that makes me question his moral fiber (not that these are the only things that ever made me question him, but that’s for a later day).

So here we go:

the atlantic was born today and i’ll tell you how:
the clouds above opened up and let it out.

I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
when the water filled every hole.
and thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
making islands where no island should go.
oh no.

those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
the rhythm of my footsteps crossing flood lands to your door have been silenced forever more.
the distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
it seems farther than ever before
oh no.

I need you so much closer
so come on, so come on.

This song makes me think of Dingo. It makes me think about how far he is from me, and about how much I wish he were right here, just waiting for me when I got home. Or at least that he was close enough that, if I wanted to see him, I’d just drive to his place and stay the night, and do it all again tomorrow.

The need for his physical form is growing greater, and I sometimes wonder if I’m doing the right thing by trying to stay loyal to him, and trying to stay with him until we can be together in the flesh. I know everyone who has ever done the long distance thing knows how this goes, and I know it too, cause I’m not new at this (*punch head*), but it feels like new hardness all the time.

Sometimes, I wonder if I’m actually doing the right thing at all because I figure that maybe he’s the one really being loyal and I’m just being selfish, and its all very confusing. *sigh*

One day, we, or I, will figure this out, and things will be as they are supposed to me.

As Kate over at Dating God tells us, the Universe is Yes, so we must be Yes.

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4 comments

  1. I know exactly what you mean.

    It makes me think about how far he is from me, and about how much I wish he were right here, just waiting for me when I got home. Or at least that he was close enough that, if I wanted to see him, I’d just drive to his place and stay the night, and do it all again tomorrow.

    That’s how I feel too.


  2. The long distance thing is never easy, even when you know for sure you’ve found The One. My husband and I briefly did long distance before we were married, and it sucked. We’re about to do it again in March, when it job takes him on a month-long-maybe-longer trip to the deserts of New Mexico. It’s going to suck even harder now, because there are small people involved. Sigh.

    Is there something morally questionable about liking Nickelback?? Tell me, please, because I like ’em.


  3. Nickelback? No, I just make fun. I personally don’t like them with such a vehemance (sp?) that I like to think the are a mark of the beast, in a way. Just a joke, really.


  4. *hugs* Sweetie, you know I’ve been there. It does suck quite a bit. Just have some faith and find strength in each other to make it work. Communicate well with each other and never ever lose that, k?



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