06.28.07

a feast of edible proportions

Posted in Friday's Feast at 11:44 pm by eatsbugs

Appetizer
How many pieces of jewelry do you wear most days?

I really don’t wear jewelry anymore, though I used to. I had moderately diva-esque dreams of being draped in silver, dabbled with gold, smelling of patchouli. Oddly enough, this is the typical form old Witches take when they ripen. There was also a sun hat involved in my vision.

I promise I’m not a crazy!

Soup
What is your favorite instrumental song?

Right now, its got to be Pandora by Conjure One. I’d link it, but Lord Google commands your attendence. However, for a more traditional approach to this, see exhibit A: October, by Eric Whitacre, or Overture for The School for Scandal, by Samuel Barber. Both wonderful, both uplifting.

Salad
Who has a last name that you like?

I can think of a lot of people I like rather well *wink wink*, and they all have last names!

Main Course
Name a popular movie you’ve never seen.

I’ve never seen Dirty Dancing. You may send your tomatoes to the complaint department at…

Dessert
Fill in the blank: Nothing makes me
anxious like knowing that I have a month until I start my new job, and no time to prepare for it.

poem 32807

Posted in Poetry at 10:44 am by eatsbugs

Dear Jennifer,
I am sitting at home on the night your sister dies,
though I hear in the days after that it was nothing kind,
and very hard to even think about, for any of us,
and because of this, we pray for you)
Complaining about the death of my video games.

I hear a car repeatedly locked,
and I grow angrier.
I hear a car’s shape scrape against the asphalt
at the intersection,
and I grow angrier.
But my temper is nothing compared to what you have
in you, I hope.
I fear for you.

I see the healthy-flesh sky the day after,
and wonder if there might be a fire
behind that smoke screen.
But musing on destruction isn’t polite, I now know.

I hear your news,
and I cry for you.

I mourn your loss, your family’s loss
I am scared of post facto silence in your country home.
I am scared of the empty fields that surround your life.
I am scared of your face in the days after:
what is behind it?

I wish today, for you,
and that things would break;
fall apart.
I wish I could cry the wool back over the eyes of each
now vulnerable child,
heal all wounds,
and rescend the event.
Never let them know the truth of the world.

These people,
my students,
have been unsheathed,
and this world is unsafe for them.
I mourn your sister’s death, your twin.
But more than this, I mourn the unarmoring of each
child’s sight.

It is good that it rains this evening.
Be well.

06.26.07

job hunt, part something

Posted in Life, School at 3:24 pm by eatsbugs

My car endured over nine hours of driving time on Monday alone. This does not count the two I made on Friday evening. Nor does it include the time I spent wandering around Surprisingly Large Town, TX looking for an eatery that could quell my need for something salty but not heavy, something savory but not filling. Baker’s Cafe looked quaint.

Mostly a coffee shop and then a dessert parlor, this little hole in the wall had a pretty amazing turkey and avocado sandwich. It was scrumptious. Of course, I don’t remember much of the sandwich other than it making me happy because I shoved it down my throat before having to bolt right back out the door for my job interview there.

We’ll call the heat in San Angelo assaulting. I felt like I was walking into an oven every time I stepped out of my car. I felt less than smart as I was wearing my black slacks, the dark red shirt, sleeves buttoned, and a tie festooned to my neck. It’s like I was wearing an oven mitt: I might not burn, but I’d sure feel how on this oven way. And like most places in Texas, they crank the air conditioners so high in all the buildings that the steam that had collected around your face and hands immediately condenses into a clammy mess. I have my own theories about climate adjustment and temperature moderation, but that’s for later, perhaps. As I think about how sweaty I was getting by simply standing in this luxuriously conditioned administrative building, I figured it might could have been my nerves.

I approached the Human Resources department, let them know I was there, waited to be called into the interview, and we led right there within a few minutes. Just enough time to reacclimate to a cooler temperature, which is better for my overall temperment, given that sweating like a pig is not synonymous with confidence and thoughtfulness.

It was a panel of nine, of which, only two were band directors. The questions were limited. The knowledge base of several of the people in the interview had me questioning why they were there. The four who did even ask me questions were thorough and pleasant, but I wasn’t exactly impressed. This was for only a junior high position. No high school interaction, no middle school involvement. It is standard practice in most schools in Texas and New Mexico to incorporate “team teaching” where all the teachers in the program assist all the other teachers in the program to enrich the learning atmosphere in all the schools. Why do they do this? Well, one junior high band director can deal with as many as 100 students in one class period, while a standard academic class maxes at 30. Breath deep that need for assistance.

They do not team teach in Surprisingly Large Town, TX. They do not team teach.

So to make a long story short, I have accepted a new position at Modest College Town, NM, aka, P-ville.

Don’t touch that dial! We’ll be back with more.

06.22.07

to feast, or not to feast… feast.

Posted in Friday's Feast at 12:42 am by eatsbugs

Appetizer
Name a funny habit you have.
The oddest is probably my need to click my teeth together as I pass telephone poles while driving. Or while listening to music. Sometimes, its just to simple rhythms. It’s bad for my teeth, but neurosis over health.

Soup
If you could instantly know how to play a musical instrument, which one would you pick?
Ha! I’ve beat you to this, for I already play saxophone. Take that Feast Meister!

Salad
How long is your hair?
Oh, it is short. So short. Well, long enough to hold on to. I like it short because its hotter than hell here. No one likes a sweaty head. Especially me.

Main Course
When was the last time you forgave someone, and who was it?
Oh, I forgive people all the time. Actually I’m not to good at it, but I do try. One must be virtuous, when one can.

Dessert
What is your favorite kitchen appliance?
I have great affinity for the blender. What other machine profides margaritas?

06.20.07

liar

Posted in Thoughts at 8:55 am by eatsbugs

Finally, after nearly seven years of “putting up with” the antics of this country’s current administration, I think I’ve finally become so angry I can barely see.

Democracy Now reported, along with many other new organizations, the final conviction and sentencing of Scooter Libby. Now, I’ve not been following it too closely, but from what I understand, Mr. Libby compromised the integrity of a secret initiative, revealed the identity of an undercover agent, all in an effort to get back at the US Ambassador the criticized the President and, in the process…

Lied. Under. Oath.

Now, my mama raised me like a good boy, and she raised to know that lying was bad. In fact, she made it painfully clear as she weilded a belt against my bare summer legs that lying was the one act she would not tolerate, period. Lying was the one thing you could do to break my mother’s heart indefinitely, and so I really try hard not to do it. Not that I’m always successful, for there are the small caveats pertaining to how to protect people from the truth, regardless of why.

I also had it pressed into my skull that the judicial system is designed to weed out the liar and the theif, as well as the murderer and the vandal. Maybe that’s a bit idealistic, but I know it tries hard to do this. I commend Judge Walton for doing his job. I also commend him on standing up to the bullying that has followed.

Can you actually believe that Republi-dumbasses are asking for a pardon for a liar? A liar and a fall guy? And a minion? This guy basically goes through a series of delicate manuveurs just to send a bit of a message to some guy who just happens to have a brain of his own, gods forbid. He violates the security of the nation by revealing names, then lies under oath. Perjury used to be just a bad as treason. What happened to that?

(I want to point out, by the way, that, given our nation’s reactionary view on security matters, I’m surprised this has taken as long as it did to go through. Oh wait, I forgot we live in a land of puppets and candy-canes. My bad.)

So back to fury. It blows my mind that we allow this to happen, this pardoning business. Oh, he did exactly like he was told. He’s a good terrier, so he deserves a biscuit! First, this goes against the ethics of law, and it goes against the morals of a nation that touts itself as highly moral.

Second, let it be known that it would be more prosperous to put Libby in jail, let him serve as the warning, and that way, maybe the American public would start to believe that this President is actually worth his weight in grade A nitrogenized fertilizer. Alas, no. We will likely see Libby pardoned from his horrible fate that would have been endured in minimally secure luxury, and the judicial system will have again bowed to the whims of a monkey with a vampire corporate Dick in his puppet-hole. ‘Cause that’s what America stands for: Good, down-home manipulation of the system to follow the flow of money.

That, and apple pie.

06.19.07

path-crossing

Posted in Life, Thoughts at 10:05 am by eatsbugs

During the whole one year that I lived in my previous apartment, with the water-soaked, spongy paint job around the tub and the sheets hanging where doors should be, I kept to myself. Me, in my small white and brown box, much like a bunker, where the window was rarely opened except on the night I decided to make love most passionate, or where I learned the value of good rice over over-the-counter rice. While I lived there, I never ventured into the community that could have become of all the people living around me. There were lots of international students in that complex. Most notably is Key, who lived right below me.

Many nights, before she moved under me, I could see her husband swinging golf balls into a blanket drapped over the same doorless frame that was mimicked in my own apartment. He was calculated. The way his arm relaxed as he followed through, as though it struck fast, then wilted, or went slow-motion. He would do it in full dress, in his underwear; I think I even saw him do it naked once.

She played piano. They purchased a piano about a month after moving under me. It rested right against the outside wall, and I could see her play it when I peaked through their open window the hid behind the iron staircase on my way up to my apartment. Sometimes, late at night, long after dark, she would thunder a tune, some Liszt, some Brahms. A subtle, muffled dance hall from under my own floor.

I also lived next to a gentleman (well, two) that I have said three words to during the year I lived there and the half year since then. We would cross paths nearly daily, and more often than not, we’d avoid eye contact. Why? What a question!

However, one of them, the one with the beardish thing, is now employed where I work, just in a different department. Sunday, when I was on my way out at closing time, I stopped into the bathroom to take care of things. He pokes his head in, as is procedure, sees me, and we lock eyes.

Yes, there was the slightest pause in the air. I gave him a “Done soon.” He gave me a “We’re closing.” That was that. The last words we’ve said to each other, at least to this point.

So it occurs to me how odd it is that you could cross the paths of so many people during the day, and never say a thing to them. Even though I’ve not said anything to many of these people. I know lots about them. I know the guy with the long hair used to date the girl with the flower skirts. I know the guy with the lips works in the Counseling office, and we used to make fun of him for what he could do with those lips. I’ve often wondered if one guy was ever going to graduate, and then I saw him at graduation. Then there is Jim, who has gone to school with me for years, and works at the local convenience store.

“How ya doin’?” he says to me one night after many times of running into him. I’ve even spoken with him over email, as he is the president of the local Celtic organization.
“I’m good, you?”
“Doing good.” These odd, sporadic and unexpected conversations are very…uncomfortable, though I’ve been around them for years and years.
“You know, you and I had classes together.” No, we didn’t.
“Are you sure?”
“Yep, one or two.” No, zero is closer.
“Huh. I guess it slipped my mind.” No, it didn’t.

But, I do know that he’s a step dancer.

06.17.07

shopping a la expose

Posted in Life at 12:47 pm by eatsbugs

“My shopping excursion displayed no results.”

This is a statement, should I have to report all my findings during any one of my few experiences buying things on a whim, that would appear quite frequently. Very often, I will wander into a department store, shoe store, music store, book store, and find absolutely nothing worth actually buying. Wait, that’s not really true. It’s usually that I can’t make up my damn mind.

Take yesterday as an example. I was strolling into Shoe Carnival, looking for shoes to replace the ones I have nearly destroyed. I have a habit of walking everywhere (yeah, I don’t get it either) and thus wear my shoes out quite quickly. During the last three years of college, I went through a pair of tennis shoes in 6 months continuously. So since the shoes I’m wearing have been around for almost a year, I think I’m due for a tire change. Shoe Carnival has lots of shoes that I’d really like to own. Most of them look pretty sharp. However, I’m always concerned that i’m gonna get some stylized shoe and its not gonna give me enough support, or its not gonna fit quite right, or be good for walking a couple miles every day.

Basically, I’m a worrier. I don’t like wasting my money, either. And I don’t like spending lots of money on shoes I’m not gonna want to wear. That too, would be equally dumb.

But I found these shoes that looked really nice. But I just couldn’t bring myself to buy them. That will be an easier decision next week when I actually have money. You have a payday coming up say HO-O! (HO-O!)

However, due to the gift card to Bed Bath and Beyond my aunt gave me, I was able to buy a CD called “Sleep Deeply.” It’s scientifically designed to put you to sleep. Not kidding. The info on the back states that it has been created to encourage the onset of delta brainwaves in the brain. I’d have to have the CD on me right now to give a fully explanation, but it had something to do with pairing two tones together and playing them just barely out of tune, so barely that a normal human ear could not perceive it.

Not that it took much last night because I’d been playing video games non-stop since 6 that day, but I did go right to sleep.

So my shopping venture wasn’t completely fruitless. Oh, and speaking for fruit, I enjoyed a nice glass of Mad Housewife Merlot last night and a single bottle of Woodchuck Pear Cider. Both were quite tasty.

All of this, to sum up, was in response to my doing well on my content exam yesterday. The last test I had to take in order to become a certified teacher. Now, I only lack my fingerprints.

I feel pretty confident about the test. It was very simple. Though it took me several moments to remember what Zydeco music was.

06.15.07

just another friday’s feast, o-oh no-o

Posted in Friday's Feast at 7:32 am by eatsbugs

Appetizer
Fill in the blank: The best thing about where I live is
the baked potato soup Girl makes. Oh man, its like a heavy dose of heaven. Tons of cheese and put-you-to-sleep goodness. Oh lordy, its good stuff.

Soup
Create a new name for a deodorant (like “Flower Fresh” or “Shower Scent”).

Problematic Bang! It’s dramatic, it’s poweful, its potentially deadly!

Salad
What was the last piece of software you installed onto your computer?

Last piece was the BOINC application that let programs like Einstein@home and Climatepredictor.com use my computer to do a little computing. Just doing my part to save the world, one byte at a time.

Main Course
If you were to receive a superlative award today beginning with the words ”Most likely to…”, what would the rest of the phrase say?

“Most likely to die of exhaustion.” I’ll give two reasons, then my acceptance speech: 1) There are so many cool things I want to do and things I want to try, and not nearly enough time to do it. I want to learn to play bagpipes and design my own rpg. I want to start a podcast, write a novel, get really involved in the Pagan community, be really involved in a gaming community, open my own business, get two more degrees, travel the world, become a world-class teacher, write a million poems that are good (not just okay, but GOOD) and make a sizeable impact on public ideals. No small order I know. 2) I refuse to go to bed at a decent hour, with or without four kidneys. And though the Girl and I worked up that a 38-hour day and a 9-day week would totally give us all the free time we needed, we also discovered that it would literally cut the lenght of a year in half by the sheer number of weeks. So that’s not so good a plan anymore. Unless everyone is up for having Spring in the month of Febru-arch-il one year and the month of M-un-ly the next.

So I’ll take this award, and then I’m gonna go slam a Crown and Coke like a good award recipient, then pass out in some other celebrities lap. Night!

Dessert
What two colors do you like to wear together?

Blue…the color of comfort, of functionality, of practicality. The color of denim.
Black…the color of intensity, mystery, the color of secrets. The color of my Donnie Darko shirt, which I am currently wearing. Go me.

06.14.07

cheater day

Posted in Comics, Meta at 4:43 pm by eatsbugs

I’m taking the day off from anything completely serious. Though I have an idea for a post that’s gonna poke at your gray matter with a big electron-infused stick. We’ll see if I can pull it off. For now, a comic about being a gentleman.

from SMBC

06.12.07

pagan quill

Posted in Creations, Meta, Paganism at 8:17 pm by eatsbugs

There comes a time in every boy’s life where he must make the choices necessary to stand up for that which he believes. Sometimes, this is family and those you love. Sometimes, it is for a fair economic exchange between citizens. Sometimes, its even the right to not have tear gas thrown at you at a public rally.

While these things are valid and valuable ideals to uphold, I believe in something far more important:

Blogging.

Well, writing, in general, but you guys all knew that. I think its is vastly important that we record every feeling and proceeding in this world. We have left our oral traditions behind, so it falls to the writers, authors, poets, singers and that ilk to detail the events of this earth so that we might learn from those who have gone before.

However, my own ideologies also incorporate a globe-view and a nature sense that best aligns with those who call themselves Pagan. I, myself, am a Pagan, and proudly so. I’ve been Pagan since I was 14 and probably before that. It is a spiritual path involving reverence for nature and attention to those things going on in the brain and in the world that don’t always add up with the way nature seems to work.

That said, let me announce that Pagan Quill is up and running as of tonight. Props to C over at Indecisive Peach, who is my accomplice.

Pagan Quill is a virtual environment where the best Pagan writers from around the world can present the best of their works for the world to see. Sure, the paying market is a wonderful platform, and the authors who do well there are to be respected and supported. However, the everyday Joe that writes what’s on his or her brain on a blog or a website, just spouting their own truth, deserves to be noticed. It’s a barding circle for new times.

Please, if you hang out here at Eatsbugs, drop by and get an eyeful of great writing. If your a pagan, or have even the slightest pagan glint when we squint at you, feel free to submit your work at paganquill@gmail.com.

Don’t be a stranger. Blessings!

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